Between the raindrops

I want to see you smile
Feel your twinkling gaze fixed on me
So when the crushing desolation
Of my selfish heart
Enraptures me
Confines me
I can remember
A fleeting splay of joy
Before this creature inside my chest
Decides it is too tired
And needs to rest
And my selfish heart stops pumping
And my traitorous body stops feeling
And my numbed mind stops grieving
And my depraved soul starts fading.